I've been trying to get a whole new look for myself..I've been losing weight - or trying at least - uhm, I plan to get my hair cut and add a bit of color once my mom pays back all the money she owes me. I've met this really cool guy named Vincent and although we have this huge age difference I really like him. =] Plus, he lives nearby.

But, I'm really just feeling like the downest person on earth...I haven't heard from my best friend in a while =/ I was supposed to hang out with her one weekend, but she just vanished..I can understand being busy with school or with L4D2 that just came out on Tuesday, but I would like to know if an emergency pops up or that we can reschedule. I really hope that she's not avoiding me...

I've been just really depressed lately..thanks to my family..Every other day it's back to the same old thing. My mom doesn't want me here or I don't do enough and I'm worthless and today she called me a fatass. I don't want to leave Alabama again because my aunt is having her baby and I want to say because my friends wouldn't want me to leave, but I don't really have many friends. I'm just at a loss as to what to do..